CH104: Lost Innocence

Innocence lost. What was gained?

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The other day, while walking from Orchard MRT, I passed by a guy taller than me. My thought was, I wish I was taller... But then I realized to my left was a guy over a foot smaller. And my thought was, thank God I'm not that short.

I took back that thought and apologized because why is it that in order to feel good about ourselves and thankful for what we have, sometimes (most times?) we have to see how bad other people have it? Is it innate to humans? Does everything we have need to be benchmark-ed?

Do we have to see the negative in order to appreciate the positive things that we have?

"Magpasalamat ka at nakapagaral ka, marami diyan gusto makapagaral pero walang pera."
"Magpasalamat ka at nakakakain ka ng masasarap na pagkain, karamihan sa atin, toyo nalang inuulam."
"Magpasalamat ka at nakakasuot ka ng mga branded na damit, marami diyan umaasa lang sa bigay or mga pulot."
"Magpasalamat ka at may maganda kang trabaho na kumikita, marami paring walang trabaho."

I'm still trying to reconcile the thoughts on how to be thankful and just that without having the thoughts of other people having it bad. It goes back to the question of equality. Was the world intended to be a place where inequality is rooted? Or did inequality come to fruition because of what mankind made of the world?
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Where does lost innocence go?

Is innocence only part of our childhood? Do we lose it in the process of maturity?
I'm befuddled still, on where my naivety and innocence have gone.
Is our world tainted such that there is no room for innocence for you to reach the peaks of power and success?

In the office, at work,, there is politics.
In government, there is corruption.
In the shopping centers, malls, there is greed.
In the slums, there is addiction and sloth.
In the clubs, there is lust pride and envy.
In life, there is hardship.

The innocent gets preyed on. What becomes of us then should we hold on to it?
We lose our innocence, and live our lives according to how we shape it.
There is no room for innocence in the grown up world.
Much like the hymen serves no real purpose except as an indication of virginity.
Virginity in that sense, has no room in the grown up world.

So as they line up and offer themselves to you, partake. Choose wisely. Take the bait as Adam and eve did. What is innocence anyway? It is just a veil of ignorance in the grown up world. The world is at your fingertips.