Thursday, July 27, 2006

Jul. 27th, 2006

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"Fire Coming Out Of A Monkey's Head"

Once upon a time at the foot of a great mountain,
there was a town where the people known as Happyfolk lived,
their very existence a mystery to the rest of the world,
obscured as it was by great clouds.
Here they played out their peaceful lives,
innocent of the litany of excess and violence that was growing in the world below.
To live in harmony with the spirit of the mountain called Monkey was enough.
Then one day Strangefolk arrived in the town.
They came in camouflage, hidden behind dark glasses, but no one noticed them: they only saw shadows.
You see, without the Truth of the Eyes, the Happyfolk were blind.

Falling out of aeroplanes and hiding out in holes
Waiting for the sunset to come, people going home
Jump out from behind them and shoot them in the head
Now everybody dancing the dance of the dead,
the dance of the dead,
the dance of the dead

In time, Strangefolk found their way into the higher reaches of the mountain,
and it was there that they found the caves of unimaginable Sincerity and Beauty.
By chance, they stumbled upon the Place Where All Good Souls Come to Rest.
The Strangefolk, they coveted the jewels in these caves above all things,
and soon they began to mine the mountain, its rich seam fueling the chaos of their own world.
Meanwhile, down in the town, the Happyfolk slept restlessly,
their dreams invaded by shadowy figures digging away at their souls.
Every day, people would wake and stare at the mountain.
Why was it bringing darkness into their lives?
And as the Strangefolk mined deeper and deeper into the mountain,
holes began to appear, bringing with them a cold and bitter wind that chilled the very soul of the monkey.
For the first time, the Happyfolk felt fearful for they knew that soon the Monkey would soon stir from its deep sleep.
And then came a sound. Distant first, it grew into castrophany so immense it could be heard far away in space.
There were no screams. There was no time.
The mountain called Monkey had spoken.
There was only fire.
And then, nothing.

I just love this song. It's just...err...visual. =) One of my favorite chill out songs STILL (since Demon Days album came out).
Update for today:
1) Bought food for app night.
2) I have started to count down the days...(for what ye ask? ho hum. what else!? Duh)
3) I have plans you know. I just hope it goes well. People. People people. that's more of what i need now for that thing im planning
4) I have realized that hehehe, like my conversation with a dear friend, that yes, indeed, faith justifies all. Faith is my enemy. It is the enemy of impulsive people like me. Faith is hard to lose. But it can be made to lose.
5) I realized that great leaders are those who are "well rounded." That, of course, will include morale aspects.
6) I am nobody's pawn. (hahaha, of course, not unless i get paid. no sexual undertones here mind you. <-i just had to say that because i thought someone might think there actually was) . I decided to -- because I wanted to --. If you asked us to -- just because you thought you could treat us like pawns -- well you're mistaken.

Slowly yet surely, time slithers by. As the weather grows even colder, the spirit is yet to be given warmth. What will be of the spirit that lies in anger and spite? What will be of the spirit that has yet months to count for its awakening and freedom? What will be of the spirit that bears the grudge, the secrets of immorality and the words of downfall? The spirit of vengeance is continually fed.

What will be of the spirit? What will be of you, the object of rage?

Sunday, July 16, 2006

Been busy

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I have just been so busy this past month...

I am starting to understand why during weekends, i tend to spend more of my time relaxing than actually trying to catch up on things.
I am so haggard during weekdays! Shit.

Which made me realize certain more things...
(which are...hehehe ill just leave it hanging)

Anyway, new layout. =) Thanks to freelayouts community hehehe

Some other stuff before I catch up on my studies:

1) Went to tiendesitas this day to have our dog groomed.
     - bought some new shirts
     - convinced my mom to buy our dog shoes and a collared shirt (which cost us...hehehe nevermind)
2) Kinakabahan na ako onti onti para sa darating na exams this week! shucks.
3) Realization 1: Circuit's organization structure sucks big time.
4) Realization 2: Circuit members lack the morale to actually do stuff for the org without feeling forced to....which then leads to the next problem...ano ginagawa ng mga taong sakop ang aspeto na ito ng org.
5) Realization 3: Waaah! Gusto ko na totoo lang. hheehe, gusto ko na magipon pambili ng bmw na X3. Hehehe, naastigan lang ako bigla kanina nung nakita ko sa daan. Ewan ko ba...nakita ko naman nuon pero i wasnt that impressed as i was just recently.

Sunday, July 9, 2006

almost halfway

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Yey! my mom is finally back...and i managed to save about 2600 pesos from the money she left me...well, of course i spent 1000 pesos from my atm the other day to buy grocery...

anyway....yey! daming pasalubong! ehhehe, actually ang daming shorts! woosh! i love the nike jacket she bought me! hehehe, i realized one thing from that:

(*) if it is another currency that you're spending, you tend to forget exactly how costly you are becoming. dumdum! I didnt expect my mom to buy me a jacket well worth about 3500-4000 pesos! my gulay! that's a lot more expensive than the nike sneakers she bought me. hehehe, i so love the green color..

i now understand better why people say that HongKong is like the shopping capital of the world or wherever.

anyway, since my mom is back, warp back to reality tipz...acads, org, lab, and so much more!

ayun lang muna. have so much stuff to do...

hustle bustle...nainspire ako sa laki ng pera na ginastos para sa akin...

hmm...oh by the way, i can't believe that my relatives have actually been living the materialistic life (that i dream of having in the very near future)...
imagine this: my cousin, age 17 y.o., buys a gucci belt for 1600 hk dollars. so that's about 8000-9000 GOd....

Tuesday, July 4, 2006

6 days.

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It's been six days since i have been all alone here at home.

So many things have happened yet far as well as so many realizations that came up.

With regards to the realizations...
The early realizations that i had...were....uhm...forgotten ahhaha. I realized those things while I was riding the jeepney to UP last wednesday (coding kasi).
I think they were more of in the line of:
1) I realized that I know I could indeed live alone...but for the early days...I think for the first four days of living alone...I already spent about 2500 pesos! My gulay! Pero that expenditure included school necessities like acquiring lecture slides etc. etc...and what's worse was that my allowance as computed by 250pesos/day * 12 days (days when my mom is out of the country) so that's about 3000. kind of makes me feel that i really am such a big spender. Though i can argue the fact that I wont eat anything if i dont have the money to hhehehe...or maybe because i wont eat for the wrong reasons like not to get fat

2) I realized that, I am ready to be independent. When I realized this hehehe I got so excited thinking of the day when I will be working abroad like tokyo or perhaps newyork or even better if it was the silicon valley....

3) Recently: I realized that I hate it when people steal from me as well as vandalize my belongings. Bakit? Galit ako sa tanong nasukahan yung wall ng kwarto ko. Puta! May stain!! I hate it!

4) Grabe na ako sa pagiging OC. Shet! Di ako mapapakali if hindi matanggal yung obssession na yun. Example. Na OC ako run na subukan talaga tanggalin yung puke on my wall...I scrubbed it like ten times to no avail. Shet! Then I became OC with the floor of the first I scrubbed it as well. And I ended up doing the srcubbing for about 2 hours! My hands were so exhausted and my back was stressed. Thus, I wasnt able to jog at UP.

5) IN all honesty, it really is a pain to be a hypocrite. But, to tell you as well, it's really hard not to be. Sometimes you have to be one in order to set things right....Pero...nakakasawa talaga eh.

6) Betrayal is indeed the only truth that sticks. Damn you!

7) I realize that I wont go out of my way or rather to exert effort just to fit in. It just doesnt make sense. I will not try to fit in with the elite when I know that I am not elite material yet. Why join in a crowd where you constantly have to keep up just to be in?

8) I should stop over exerting myself. I missed to classes (830 am) because I over studied. I mean, for last friday, i had eee43 class...but i wasnt able to attend because I wasnt able to wake up on time for the mere fact that I read the book for that class till 230 am.

9) I have matured.

10)  I have become better at videoke.

=) that's it for now.
With regards to vandalizing my things...I really am pissed that you didnt even apologize for creating the mess in the first place. So...remember this for you other people, drink responsibly. (I was sober all through out the night I had the party over at my place)...If you're going to puke, apologize. If you couldnt clean it up yourself, ask politely and do not impose on others.

Seriously, im getting nauseated by constant knacks of neigborhood. Good neighbors know privacy. Good neighbors do not puke over at some else's bedroom....and if they do...they apologize.

Last but not the least, Good neighbors, when invited to a party, do not invite other people to gatecrash without telling the host....and they dont impose on the host to store their San Mig Strong Ice over the host's freezer.

Good neighbors, Good friends do not impose on another neighbor/friend.

Ps: My issue with being betrayed and my life being treated with mockery will never be settled. You of my realizations when I was sitting over my throne at my comfort room months ago was that:

*If somebody stabs me or offends me or even does something to my ego, pride and personality...I make sure I strike back. If I get stabbed, I murder. But of course, for th readers, dont take this literally. To explain, If somebody stabs me behind my back, I get back at that person and make sure to cripple him/do what was done to me several folds more. Of course, that's just to teach him a lesson...Revenge awaits