Lately, I have been having this freak out sessions with regards to what i need to do for my ece198. I just get so freaked out that I face away and procrastinate. I hate it. I am just so confused. I feel guilty for not doing anything yet, but then i tell myself, "relax, take it at your own pace. Enjoy every moment of vacation while it lasts." Well, I still feel guilty, But, I do give in to the latter's persuasion. It has, after all, been just less than 2 weeks since I became free from last sem.
over all, the sem turned out pretty well. a tres in 53 is not so bad. Heck, I am thankful I did not have to take up the removal exam....I am quite happy and satisfied with the performance for this sem. The guilt feeling of actually not doing super duper well as to pull my grades higher than was expected lingered --- but not for too long though. I has passed. I mean, I could have done better. But, alas, I need at most 1.25 in two of my subjects next sem to actually "make it." But, enough about that. As they say, in this life, the only path available is the path forward. Hahaha, well, they might not have said that, if so, then I said it. haha.
On to lighter side of things.
-It's such a shame that the motorolla razr v8 does not have some of the things that I wish for in a mobile phone. The first things i the lack of expansion in memory. 512 mb is kind of lame. I was hoping that if i did want to buy it, that I would be able to use that memory instead on the v8. But hahaha. why all of this for just a phone? BLAME IT ON THEIR AD! Their (the motorolla razr v8) ad i just so whacked up! It's so cool. Though, reminiscent of the matrix fight scenese, the concept was just so school. To my interpretation of the commercial, it would seem to me that what they were trying to say was that the phone was that "edgy" that it can cut through skin or something haha. the emphasis being put on "edgy" I like the design. But, im still contemplating on whether I would switch phone to it or not. Anyway, if i do have the money, then i guess....But now, I'm broke. I can't even get a hold of a nice pair of shoes I saw...It's all up to mommy. (*evil grin*)
-I can't believe my brother all ready has his PS3!!! @#$@^#% Hehehe. That was just mumbling gibberish. Add insult to the injury - he even has his own lcd tv! although, it was not hdtv. He did say it has hdmi (heheh, whatever that means) --- all i know is that i is compatible with the ps3 - enough to really show case it's console prowess. Haay...Now, I am saying this because this seriously got me thinking about the career path that I should take.
-Corporate world career
If I did decide to go into the corporate world, and with a BS in ECE (hmm - knocks on wood thrice), then I will not be able to maximize the growth that engineering students (especially electronics courses) have. I mean, see my brother for example, he decided to go down the career path of a networks engineer - and now he has a stable job in new zealand, with his girlfriend, a ps3, etc etc. Now, YOU WOULD NOT GET THAT IN LESS THAN 4 MONTHS ordinarily - but he did. Well, yes, he is 30 years old. And, he may have acquired enough experience blah blah blah. But the point of it being, can a career in the corporate world bring something like that? My brother has just been working in that company for the said amount of time, but he has already achieved that height.
Once, I forgot when, I told my mom. "Ma, baka di na naman ako mag work sa ibang bansa. Pwede naman akong maiwan nalang dito sa Pilipinas and ako na bahala sa mga ariarian natin." My mom told that to my dad and my sister. And she relayed to me. They laughed at that concept. Well not in the sense of "pangmamaliit" but in the sense of --- hmmm... just plain and simple HUMOR. And my dad's reply was: "Well, that's good, we have someone to take care of us." Hehehe. Well, in my family, where the notion of trying to make up a career here in the Philippines is just a waste of talent (considering monetary returns)...One would think that yes, It will be waste.
So now, the point of the discussion being brought back. If I decided to go and traverse the path to a corporate career - then I will just be stuck here in the Philippines. Yes, there may be opportunities to travel - but that's not really the idea now. The idea being, to be able to create a career elsewhere( abroad) and become stable. Earn big bucks! Hmm...do i hear amounts like 3M pesos per annum? WEll, that would be a great case....but a case that seems thoroughly unlikely if one pursues a career in the corporate world.
But, hmm, the argument of the corporate career is that, right now, I feel as if my interests lie in that direction. I just don't see myself working my ass off and continually burning up my neurons and solving excruciating engineering problems...Well, A good scenario will be, if it was an engineering career - only this time, I am the boss of my own corporation. Now, won't that be a good mix of both things? Well, yes, even I hope for that. But, my family is not really the type to risk things that big...with a lot of uncertainty and probability of failure especially here in the Philippines - well, that's mostly what they think. I do give the Philippines the benefit of the doubt though.
anyway. I digress. my resolution will be to at least try out engineering jobs and see for myself what the result may be. The result may point me 180 degrees in the other direction. Or it may point me to take up my masters or something.
PS: My mom and I bought this "bed tray." It's wood. Hmm. It's the one that you kind of like use to have bed in breakfast in. Haha. And this is just such a great buy! Now I can really use my laptop in bed. Type stuff. Like what I am doing now, and even read magazines and stuff! It's well worth it. If you do want something to place your laptop on while in bed, you can buy something similar! You can find one in SM. It costs only about 430 pesos! It is sturdy enough! Hmm, oh yeah, just to put emphasis on how I really like this thing. Well, before, since I use my laptop a lot, I put it on the bed, and it heats up due to the lack of ventilation (the bottom being put against something that absorbs the head...blah blah) and I usually end up having it hard on my back and neck since the laptop is so low. So what I do sometimes is put it on a chair and I lie down in bed while using it...so....more trouble to the neck. But say goodbye to those things! hehehe. Plus, it can double to something you can use to have breakfast in bed! Or....vice versa...in this case...since I did buy it for the purpose of using my laptop in bed.