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Board exam results are out.
No. I didn't pass. But I didn't fail either.
I'm in Board Exam Limbo. Hahaha.
Tally of results:
My exam average is higher compared with the results of some people...I decided by myself to get. Hahaha. Of course, you have to create a benchmark for things.
So there. By a matter of 2%. Even though there has been a transmutation of grades...I wasnt able to make it.
When you have been so used to being on top, well, God has His way of making you see things in a new light. And apparently...This is the case.
At least, I only have to retake for 1 exam.
Maybe God took my prayers seriously when i prayed, that he let those people who are most deserving to pass. Hahaha.
Here's a narration of exactly what happened.
Thursday before board exam, I was suffering from a fever. Cough got me. So I was sick with headache on the days of the exam. But, it's not really an excuse. Although, it played a part, such that I was not able to review saturday...and I just slept through the whole day - till next morning. Hahaha. Luckily, my mom woke me up around 6 - because, I was sure that I wouldnt have been able to wake up then.
So...what to do now? Well, my dad told me: "Dapat, kung saan ka nadapa, duon ka babangon."
But, I'm not sure if I have enough guts to actually retake that exam. "Grabe. Ginapang ko talaga sagutan yun." And, I still feel defeated. Perhaps, it's a case of me losing my mojo. I'm afraid right now that if I took it again and fail, then I will have to retake the whole exam all over.
Thank you for everyone's support during the course of the mini ordeal I went through. Hahaha. It's not really funny when you don't see your name in the result list. Heck, it's not funny at all. I was at the point of questioning whether I was stupid or something.
BUT. When I saw the results...hmm...not too bad. It turns out I only got 4 mistakes for math. And, math is my basis for intelligence. For EST...well, a lot of questions were trivial.
So there. my official press release of what happened.
I didn't pass. I didn't fail.
I'm in limbo.
Not such a fun place to be in.
But, on a lighter note...Base on my research...Board passers last April, got an average of around 83% (in Top ten).
If I was to make it in...Well, it could be possible...If i do really well for EST.
What ifs what ifs. I've had enough of What ifs.
The only real thing that remains now are the following:
1. I am still thankful to the Lord with all the blessings he has given me and my family. Not really more on material things...hmmm...well, maybe most of it. But, given the financial crisis all over the world, I'm happy that we're not really feeling the effects of things right now. I'm not particularly happy that a lot of people are losing their jobs around the world...But then again, this is life. Reality bites.
2. I am happy that even though I was not able to pass...I didn't exactly fail either. He may have his own plans for me.
3. Faithful friends who are behind me all the way. Their support has been instumental.
4. A decent job with decent pay. Thank you. I would not be able to afford the things I want and love without a decent job. Hmm..."gumastos pa ako after the exam...sayang. Sana pala hindi nalang hahaha." After the exam, I decided to buy for myself North Face slippers, treat my mom to heaven and eggs, buy my mom Skechers sandals. Hahaha. I love spending money. But, I love saving money even more. Haay. If only, my safety net cash will grow more. It has not been accumulating for the past 2 months.
Now, life goes on. I'm not yet sure if I would take the board exam again. That's still in the works. But redemption is a game I love playing. We'll see. We'll see what happens.
But what I know I should be doing is getting on with my life. There's really no more use for sulking now that I know where I should be heading (the road of the rich and famous! hahahah). Yes, I'll admit it, I sulked wednesday and thursday. Well, cut me some slack, I was slapped really hard by God. "Masakit siya."
PS: To my office mates who I think I'm taking Glut. NO. I don't take those kinds of supplement. I don't like being to radiantly white. (It attracts kidnappers. Hahahahaha. Just kidding.) But no, seriously, I don't take met ("hindi yung drugs at hindi yung pampaputi"). Heck, I don't even know why people want to be white. I love going to the beach and getting dark.
Congratulations to all those deserving Electronics Engineering Board Exam takers who have passed! =) No more envy here. I'm good to go.