putek! masakit! + perspective

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putek. ang sakit sobra ng ulo ko! ewan ko ba kung migraine to or what. pero kanina pang 7 to eh. siguro kulang lang sa tulog or pagod or what. pero hinde!!!! ang sakit eh. di ako makatulog sa sakit ng ulo ko. nag paracetamol na ako at lahat lahat walang epek! putek!

anyway:
update:
1. ang sakit ng ulo ko!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
2. undergraduate student/research project - whatever. going well so far. the more intense programming is coming up. i hope this headache is not some prelude to getting sick. - but hey, exhaustion and stress do cause such effect.
3. heroes has become - boring. here's what i think about it...it's like a tagalog telenovela. the protagonists are just manipulated by antagonists. maya = sylar, adam = peter, suresh = bob....etc. boring. prison break is way better - too bad they're on hiatus.
4. no more u

update ulit:
-yey! lumipas na ang sakit ng ulo ko. hahaha. 
may nagym sa akin...mas okay na raw sakit ng ulo kesa lbm.
my answer:
"mas okay na lbm. at least yun pumapayat ka. hahaha." -> i eat chocolate or candy basta matamis para mawala ehehhe.

perspective:
i have gained a new appreciation for my family. well, it's more of the ideologies that drive my family, my being bunso as well as the "unplanned family planning sort of jamboree"

---first off, id just like to share. im not sure if i have mentioned it before in this blog. but my mom once told me (candidly) that I was not expected. - no need to elaborate on that - but if you need me to paint the picture further - my mom stopped using pills - and then - my dad comes home from his trip abroad - and 9 months after (a few months after edsa revolution) - i exist. (and so - I digress)

--So, then, my brother is 9 years older and my sister is 10 years older. due to this family structure, i have enjoyed the fruits of everyone of my family's labor. being bunso and all, well, it has it perks. So, thanks to everyone of them, I don't think I have ever felt the pincers of poverty. Although, it is with great thanks to God that my siblings are doing really well with their careers....so....because of them, the comfort by which my mom and I live is more than enough...my dad and siblings work abroad...only my mom and I live in our house....oh, add to that number our dog...so 3 existence for a 3 storyhouse townhouse (there's a difference in size right? a th is smaller than when you say a house. well, by my standards i guess)...and my mom works din...and we have our 2 - little condominium units in mandaluyong being rented...

--So, I know, with the structure of my family (may it be intentional or not - please refer to 1st bullet hehehe) I have been given so much to be thankful for. But, aside from the privileges of being well supported, i think i may have taken a lot of things for granted....But, I have come to realize, that the privileges I have....out of all of them, the thing I realize most important now, is my privilege to have a choice and a perspective by which to see those choices for what they are

--Being bunso, the only one that needs to be supported...the only one who needs allowance, the only dependent person in a family of 4 hardworking people, yes, i may have been spoiled...but I did earn it by doing well in the things they fund me for (education) - so I guess that's a good trade-off....bring honor to the family = perks. So, because of all the said things, I am really grateful for my family for there they put no pressure on me. Although, before, I have been pushed to think that - the pressure of UP was far too great. (GO FIGURE. - BANNED na siya ngayon =p). No pressure to find a good work immediately to be independent and start working for my parents retirement. No pressure to do really really good so that I wont have a hard time finding a good job. No pressure at all. Only encouragement to excel.I was such a fool to think that before, that they werent being supportive. They are, really.

--Because of everything, right now, my life is really how I wish to paint it to be. With a few words of encouragement, to sway me for the better....well, that wouldnt hurt....my mom and dad wish me to pursue my MS....although, quite promising...I still have my doubts...the feel to get away from the academe is still encroaching itself. CHOICE. The greatest privilege i have inherited from my family....the power to choose for myself the life I want to live.

-------------------So what do I wish people pick up from this?
-Well, we have all been put in our own places and family for a purpose. It's not a matter of chance and who's having it easier or not...or whatever. We are where we are for a purpose. And it is in line with that purpose that we gain perspective - our individuality - our sense of being. It is quite enjoyable to observe actually. To think that everyone is going through their life to understand that purpose(s) and realize who they are and what they are meant to be. 

-and that however privilege in life other people may seem, they face different challenges from you. Money, privilege however you wish to call it, is not a "constant" in life's equation. As an example, for my case, the challenge is to make the right choices in life and live up to it....well, that may be kind of general, but what I was comparing it against is for somebody who has no choice and the path is already laid out for him and the challenge is to overcome the adversity that one encounters along the way,...

-different people, different challenges. I guess, what should be the same for everyone is the fact that life goes on...and we must all move forward.

the golden compass

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i just finished reading the first book of pullman's trilogy - the golden compass.

so for what i can say about it - well, it's not as "epic" as the harry potter books. Well, I am talking about it in each book's singularity. Rowling packed a lot of punches in each addition...the golden compass though - well, to say the least - i didnt expect it to be "unfinished." Although, a lot of questions were answered in the last three chapters of the book - it's open ended. i guess, i should have expected this. It is after all part of a TRILOGY...so it has not ended YET.

So, what's there to look forward to in its big screen adaptation? Well, for one, the special effects. Second for me will be the performance of the actors to play Mrs. Coulter and Lord Asriel. I think, that will be one of the few things I'll be looking forward to. Plus, of course, the epic battle between Iorek and Iofur....

I haven't started reading the subtle knife - part ii...but...hahaha...i accidentally read a spoiler in wikipedia when i was reading up on some character....shet...But it does make sense for him to be one of the main antagonist considering a few paragraphs and even an encounter with Lyra that pullman spared for him...

Overall, I'd still tell people to try reading up on this....I hope they do read it before the movie is shown though. Hahaha, it will be reminiscent to when I first saw the first movie of harry potter and the movie house was "full to the brim." Comparing this and that in the film with that of the novel...It makes you feel special and sort of "editorial" and valid to make a critique of some sort.

Also, to people, don't be deterred about the emails spreading around to "boycott" pullman's the golden compass. I read through it and did not sense any form of hostility against God. Well, the church was criticized blatantly at the latter parts...it could be accurate to say that after reading the golden compass, it is the church, or whatever entity that governs a religion - which is subjected to pullman's scrutiny.

Tagged: 6 weird things

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Each player of this game starts with 6 weird things about himself/herself. People who got tagged need to write a blog entry of their own 6 weird things. They should as well state the rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. Don’t forget to leave a comment that says "you are tagged" in their comments and tell them to read your blog.

tagging:

--who ever wants to be tag...(this has to end sometime)

here goes...

1) i hate marshmallows. the texture of it or whatever...disgusting.

2) i recently adapted a change in lifestyle. i will only eat seafood/vegetables. well, an exception of course: when there are family gatherings. (no need to make yourself important if they don't have any seafood/veggies served) hehe.

3) recently, let's say 2 months ago or something, ive developed this sort of reflex "shuddering" when i see something gruesome...ala fear factor.

4) i hate eating pineapple as "ulam." i don't like them on pizza or the sweet and sour fish/pork (when i used to it pork then) - pineapple is for dessert.

5) i appreciate something even more when i know not many people have learned to appreciate it. (i.e. latest single from some artist or something)

6) i have dermographism =p it's actually cool though...in some ways...as it is, it literally is being able to write on your skin...histamine problem i think.

updates picked from various date after the last post.

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A lot of things have already happened! Hahaha. It just became so boring trying to update this blog...seeing that i wanted to make the most out of my "bakasyon grande" before enrolment started...and..."catching up with friends" took my time after the enrollment. 

Before the week of enrollment started, I made sure to make a movie rush. Since we live near Trinoma, why not make full use of its perks. So, I beat my record with 4 movie-outs in 6 days. The first was, lust, caution, the second was perfume - the story of a murderer, the thrid was superbad and last being 30 days of night.

All four movies were great! Of course, they should be. I wouldn't be watching them in the first place if they werent. For a dose of your movie reviews: try this site: http://www.rottentomatoes.com.

It has never failed me. After seeing ZODIAC having a very high rating, I even convinced a friend to go and watch it with me - last full show at greenbelt. (we came from gateway)...and the show was almost 3 hours...and it started around 12. so...go figure.

Anyway, classes have officially started! Hapon 10-11 is particularly fun. As for the other subjects. Well, no comment. No classes yet.

Also, I find it particularly fascinating how discriminating the dfa process of applying for a passport is -- or renewing it. When we went to dfa, it did not even take us 30 minutes before we exited the place -- whence we entered it....this is because we had it "processed" and I wondered, How big is the price discrepancy for people not to go for it. My mom told me, 550 was the regularly fee. 1300 was the fee we had to pay to get it processed. And it saved us from lining up...and man! were those lines long - and there was more than one place they had to line up for! Why don't they just go midway to allow everyone the same privilege...anyway,..if other people (honest good and hardworking) will have employment because of this impartiality - then, I guess, it would be justifiable...

This is how I start seeing commercialization. I don't know...Yes, it will be bad for small businesses if another SM is built near them. I have realized that long before and felt for those people. But then, now, it's different. SM provides an opportunity for people with jobs to actually have a form of living - thereby feeding their families, having their sons/daughters or siblings go to school etc...so...it's better that way right?

Tomorrow:
MUST WATCH BEOWULF!!! Hahaha, If there was an IMAX theater in QC then I would have delighted in that...But sadly none, so I wish to watch it in THX in trinoma...I haven't read any reviews for it - but I expect it to be good. I have 300 in mind....with the effects and everything.

Today:
After my mom and I went to dfa, since MOA was so close - why not? There....I experienced two things that I have never experienced in my life!!! And I really enjoyed the experience!!

1) Saeki Sushi - Sushi plates on conveyor belts!! The food was delicious. Although, I have to say, the most delicious ones were in the red plate-lets...but they're kind of expensive. 99 pesos per plate. The next one is green - 79 pesos, the next one is yellow - 59 and purple - 39 pesos. It is really delicious! Trust me on that. Well, compared to the maki you find in tokyo tokyo, it's better by a hundred miles. Hahaha. No exaggeration there....Go there with your barkada who love it japanese!! They also have a buffet - 349 pesos...and sulit na sobra...

2) TNDM - erm. you know, the artsy artsy fancy booths you find in some malls where you paint and stuff like that. Since, I thought we had a lot of time to kill before I want to go home so I invited my mom to try it out. And well, yes, it was fun. I invited my mom for the purpose on her part. She did enjoy it. Nice bonding experience. Hahaha, we even bought some to take home and pass the time when the need to pass the time arises. We stayed to finish sort of "clay - painting" it...aliw...pwede na pamalit sa pagpapamasahe sa spa.

MOA is not the best mall. I like trinoma far better

Anyway, what else...

oh yeah, I love the canepe from delifrance. Hahaah, I recalled eating them for the first time back then at Canon's eee190 field trip and I loved them! who cares about carbs? Not me! Sarap! Although, It was a little expensive. I was shocked to see the price. I remember seeing like a box of 24 or 25 I forgot, back at Canon and it cost 789 I think...around that figure (and they ordered about 3 or 2 boxes for us!)....and when you order for twelve...around 380+...Well, it wasnt what we ordered. Those were the premium canepe...but, I thought it would be wasteful to buy that one since I no longer eat pork, beef and chicken...and the only thing I would have liked in that order was the one with salmon...So we just tried out the classic canepe...This one's a bit more affordable. The 1 dozen order cost about 280ish...Worth it. definitely....it has crabmeat, tuna and i forgot the other - was it ?egg?

Same with Krispy Kreme! My mom never liked eating donuts before - even gonuts. She thought they were too sweet or something. But the original glaze by KK is just way above all others.

And finally - I'm about to finish the golden compass!!! Woohooo!!! Philip Pullman is now in my list of must reads. First, siyempre is stephen king. rowling - well, hp has concluded - so im not expecting anything soon, then we have crichton - connelly - both michael...and...eoin colfer the author of artemis fowl...and siyempre - pullman with is the dark materials.

I have read tolkien - and found it absurdly boring halfway through the trilogy. Well, forgive me for my "non-english" familiarization...Or maybe the copy I had was the older one - the book had this enigmatic feel to it - that wasnt quite entertaining. To see verbs or whatever end in -th. Old english - I think that's how I should have referred to it. Anyway - tolkien's writings are better off on the big screen for me. I read the last of the trilogy 3/4 through...then stopped.

Anyway, TRY reading through Pullman. Although, there have been rumors about the nature of the book to mislead us to atheism. Well, I don't really think it's true - so far as I have read...288/351...They have mentioned of the church though - and their means of manipulation...You have to read it for yourselves then decide.

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ps: I had this weirdest feeling - like several days back....The feeling I had felt in my dreams extended over to what I was feeling for the whole day after I woke up. I couldn't explain why till I had a hint ( already a lot of hours after I have awakened) it was because of what i dreamt.... Hahaha, I have been wishing to dream the sequence to the next chapter...but - the past nights have been dreamless.