Stories

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We all have stories to tell.
I have mine. 
Stories of betrayal would most likely be the most intriguing.
And the most likely to be of interest for some people.
Some people have told their stories.
I have told mine to a certain few.
A few, I believe, is a number that's more than enough.

I thought that I have moved on.
But lately, I am not sure if I truly have.
I thought that maybe the will to forgive arose just because I feel that it is indeed time for forgiveness.
But is it really?

"Betrayal is the only truth that sticks."
I learned this after going through the experience twice.
Mathematics dictates that two is not much more than one.
Two is a number that's more than one by one.
But figures such as this matter little.
Circumstances dictate that two is more than enough.
Much much more than one, really.

I have said, "Forgotten but never forgiven."
Is it all about angst and bitterness?
Maybe.
I am not sure.
Do not trust me because I dont know well enough.
How can you forget when the fact is, you cannot forgive.
Trivial matters.

How I wish my heart was not as empathic as it is.
Really, this fact is one I am sure of.
The heart that forgives easily is a good heart.
I have done that once.
But paid the price.
I accepted the punishment.
I have moved on.
I tried to make my heart cold from betrayal.
I thought that it was hard as a rock.
Well, that's what I thought.

I am held back by something.
Something I still can't let go.
I cant tell you though.
I don't even know it myself.

Stories.
People have stories.
But only a few are able to tell theirs.
I am not ready to tell mine to all.
Does that make me less of a person?
Maybe.

Or maybe
Some stories are not meant to be told.
Some secrets are best left unsaid.
But are my stories secret?
I shall decide.

But as of now.
The stories I have.
Are mine alone.

--time to study for eee23. But first, I should be taking a bath now. I stink of smoke.
--I feel rather complacent lately for the eee23 exam. I hope it is not doom looming around the corner.
--The doom I refer to is over confidence. That's something that could kill you...academically speaking.

Matters that are of interest:
1) I want to buy myself a hardbound copy of Screwtape Letters by CS Lewis. I think I will enjoy reading it again. I read it before in gradeschool...or was it highschool...cant remember. But I believe it did not make the impact it should. So...does anybody know where I can find a good hardbound copy?
2) I will go to the Alumni Homecoming. I've reconsidered things and thought that...heck, I should. But not only that...but also because, the theme was to be different! Hahah. Am I being too shallow? I guess not. It just fits in. The theme of being different I mean.
3) I want to be affiliated to UP arise. I had this concept that once I finish my term as the finance committee head, maybe I could participate in UP arise activities...or maybe even become the president lol. Why Arise? Maybe because, their ideals are best fit with mine. And, I could grow better in ways like social activism and things like that. Arise = Alyansa?
4) Poetic narration. hahaha.

end.

R-18. collision course.

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If your havin girl problems i feel bad for you son
I got 99 problems but a bitch ain't one
I need a little room to breathe
I got 99 problems
And I'm about to
Break

philcoa marathon?

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omg! ive been like staying over at philcoa for the past 2 nights. doing stuff like just a while ago, eee23 project, and the night before this I was there studying for physics 103.

booo! i dont like the philco-an atmosphere when i stay there for too long...the air is kind of stifling when you stay there for too long...maybe someone should reformat the structure of philcoa...make it a lot livelier than it is.

things left to do...chronologically arranged.
1) eee 23 project.
2) eee 23 exam
3) alumni homecoming (12mn-3am?! damn! i hope i dont end up compromising too much for my physics 103 exam. sayang lang kasi yung pinagpaguran ko for physics if i just settle for less for my finals.)
4) physics 103 exam.
5) (party? ehhehe, make the most of the short break)
6) final rites over at pansol laguna.
7) planning sem over at snap's place.
8) (puerto galera. hopefully.)
9) summer registration
...
?) irc project (over the summer)
etc.

no complaints though. the vacation feel is starting to set in...everything is just so lazy...

some positive news:
1) eee25 is finally over. i do hope i get 1.75
2) comm 3 is finally over. i do HOPE i get 1.00
3) eee103 is finally over (surely ill be exempted...I HOPE)...1.50 the least?
4) blah blah blah
-comm3 speech was ahhahah...whatever...fun (?) i dont think i was as coherent as i wanted to be.

PS: i have been so distracted lately. damn. (...) is knocking back. fuck fuck fuck. enough.

officially.

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coming april 11 (my birthday!)
http://www.pcconnection.com/ProductDetail?Sku=6323812
http://www.pcconnection.com/ProductDetail?Sku=6052434

yey!
kala ko ba aspire sabi ni pasi.
hehehe anyway. looks good to me.

now what should i be doing?
oh yeah...study!

what's mine?

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Sister's
http://global.acer.com/products/notebook/as5540.htm
http://global.acer.com/products/notebook/as5560.htm


Mine
http://global.acer.com/products/notebook/as5620.htm
http://global.acer.com/products/notebook/as5650.htm
http://global.acer.com/products/notebook/as5670.htm

april 11.
wow. 1 laptop = 2 birthday gifts from dad?

eee103! yes! i do hope i get a very high grade.
eee25! please...please please....God help me get at least 85 in that exam...that could guarantee me 1.75.
eee23...omg! project and exams
phys103...omg! long readings to come.

hmm...time to go to lew's pad. party anybody?

eleCKTion results

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Salamat sa mga nagtiwala!

little updates.
1) grabe yung campaign period. ang saya na nakakapagod...especially since ang dami ring mga dues for this week.
2) decided to sleep last night (friday night) at 10:15 pm...then di ako makatulog aheheheh...nagiisip ng plano para sa pag raise ng fund...hehehe...yey! nakaconceptualize na ako ng something na extension ng ConneCKTing us eheheh. consult ko na nga sa ibang next execom...
3) dalawa pa exams ko! no!!!! EEE103 1hr 15 minutes from now....haay...booo! then may eee25 pa! for some weird reason...ang aral ko lang for eee25 is yung problem set...at yung sa 103 is yung prob set, consultation with sir ivan cruz and yung reference sa book...

time to go to school! bleck.

more energy mas happy! coffee...coffeee....

again, salamat sa suporta ng mga bumoto at mga kaibigang nagtiwala.

special mention to:
Norman, Rose, Pauee, A.lo, Nikki (hehe a smile can go a long mile), Lew, Ate May (Sabi ko nga kay rose, natouch ako sobra..."i mean duh. BPI science awardee si ate may tapos ganun kalaki tiwala niya sa aking capability...thanks ate may!) and to everyone else I may have missed out, sorry...stupor.

sigh.

thanks!
Thank YOU.

Mar. 11th, 2006

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hmm...campaign starts monday. =)

vote for tipz as the next finance committee head.

last friday, i slept at 6am. I was finishing my candidacy form, spoa/gpoa and curriculum vitae. It was kinda fun doing it. And, also, the way things turned out...well...rather well. =) I didnt expect some other candidates to pass candid shots of themselves for the picture. ahahha. lew went for the shades picture, risha opted for a full frontal smile pic and I...hehehe went on and had a right side of face view while listening to some mp3 cool effect pic. =) Then, rose, lew, a.lo and I went out and watched Yours, mine and ours. A good movie to watch. Light story not something that requires you to think a lot but overall it was entertaining.

Today, Saturday...I did almost nothing except study for my EEE103 exam...well, not really study but I just tried solving the problem set...and...to tell you honestly, I was dumbstrucked. I also had a strong sense of hesitation to not browse through the book.

I'll probably start with EEE25 problem set before hitting the sack later.

For tomorrow:
1) Study eee25 and eee103.
2) Jog around UP
2.1) Meditation time
2.2) mental simulation of meeting de avance question&answer portion
2.3) campaign strategies
3) start reading 1 chapter for eee25
4) start reading 1 chapter for physics103
5) sort clothes for monday, tuesday, wednesday, thursday and friday. hehehehe. (grins)

good luck to other candidates!

omg!

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while i was looking through my bro's resume...lo and behold!
i realized how much difference 9 years of age has between us!

his credentials please...(drum rolls)
My bro's skills:

	Literate, with knowledge on the following server platforms/applications:
	·     AS/400	·     Hotel Information System	·     Paragon Back Office
	·     Windows NT Server	·     Linux FC3/FreeBSD (basic)	·     UNIX
	·     MICROS 8700	·     Siemens advaNTage	·     Ving Card System
	·     FreeProxy (proxy server)	·     MS ISA Server (basic)	·     Symantec Antivirus Server
	·     MS SQL Server 7.0	·     KISS (Casino Information and Statistics System)
	Literate, with knowledge on the following software:
	·     Windows 95/98/ME	·     Windows NT/2000/XP	·     MS DOS
	·     Sniffer software	·     Remote Control software	·     Adobe Photoshop 7.0/CS
	·     AutoCAD R14/2000	·     Crystal Reports 9.0	·     MIKOHN
	·     MS Office suite	·     MS Project	·     MS Visio
	Literate, with knowledge on the following programming languages:
	·     Visual Basic 6.0	·     Java 2	·     C++ language

and his work experience...anong klaseng kapatid ako! i didnt know it was that long! sigh...

insecurities begin to arise. ahahah. nope nope. must set the difference.

anyway...have other stuff to do like spoa gpoa etc etc for circuit...for circuit...concentrate and read mantra again...for circuit...
oh yeah! just wanted to share.
i so hate the fact that i allowed ourselves to continue with the interview. the team that was supposed to report was irene's team. but she had an excuse that she had to go somewhere. and there goes irish (my team mate) friends shouting out her name! so our team was to do the interview! argh! and i was so pissed at that moment. ahahah that didnt sound right. ihing ihi na ako! so my answers to the questions that irish asked were...to my opinion SUCKY!!! FUCK! I wanted to get 1.0 in comm 3. but now...boohoo! 

spoa/gpoa time.

(academic week)'

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or in other words, a non academic day! ahahha. this week was a blast! the much needed distraction and rest have finally arrived!

squeeeze 2006 is finally over. It went well...aside from some internal conflicts.

circuit election is almost near.

esc and usc elections is uhm...2 days from now...no wait. tomorrow? hmm...tomorrow along with circuit nominations.

haay...overall, a great and relaxing week...extracurricular activities went great! <- went to studio 23 and saw some stars on the way. =)

anyway, for today, I watched two movies. Saw and SawII. And can i just say that it seems to be a little bit over-rated. It wasnt as disgusting as everyone said it was. Hahaha. Or maybe it wasnt for me...

I also went to jog around UP...it was kinda late at around 7:00 pm...again...hmm...i dont know. Wala na akong makitang ibang place to jog around at. Anyway, isip ko nalang if that incident ever happens again...it would be a great excuse to try and beat up somebody hehehe.

So anyway...when i was about to finish jogging...i was already walking and trying to regularize my breathing...at the tennis court(s) beside the college of engineering, the street lights just suddenly turned off! Ahahah. At first I was freaked out...I was thinking like shit...where have all the people gone to? Why am I the only one left jogging etc etc...and some flashes from the scenes of saw came to my mind...It was just a little bit creepy...and the effect when the lights were turned on seemed almost melo-horror dramatic. hehehe. They lit up one by one.

anyway...when i was jogging around...I thought of this really ehhehe inspiring quote...well for me it was. It came about when I was trying to simulate the nomination G.A that circuit will be having.

and...I said...(I'll keep the simulation i was thinking of a secret)

"A leader doesn't wait for opportunities. They create them."

hehehe.

then after jogging, went to eee to bring lew along. hehehe. may laptop siyang dala. eheheh...so sinabay ko na rin siya pauwi.

haay...havent been updating lately...